O.M.G!!!!!

I have lost 2lbs this week taking me to........................

5 stones lost!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am sooooooooo pleased, only 41lbs to go.

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Bad things come in 5's in my house!!!!

P*ssed off with my bad luck, not been able to exercise at all and not understanding why people are so vindictive!!!

I have stuck to the diet but I have really felt the difference not exercising this week, I should still get a loss based on just the diet but I have felt really sluggish and have had no energy so it just shows the other benefits regular exercise can bring.

I really want this drain problem to be the last bad thing for a while.........

All is good again!!

Andy has now been fully cleared of the ridiculous accusation at work so we are going out to our favourite restaurant tonight to celebrate! Mama's & Leonie's here we come!! lol


We are going to eat quite early so that means that while Andy re-charges his batteries I am going to get a really good exercise session in to catch up the days I have missed.

I am very proud of Andy and the way he has handled it all.

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No exercise!

Not done any exercise for 3 days now, I do have my excuses all in place (all valid) and when we know the outcome from andy's work tomorrow I will know whether I go at it like a demon or spend my time being usefull and get Andy the fuck out of there!!!!

Whatever, I feel the need to box like a mo'fo to get my frustration out!!

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Oooops need to catch up.

Ok nice stuff first, went to London at the weekend to watch the recording of 2 All Star Family Fortunes shows. Before I went I never had a good word to say about Mr Kay but after seeing how genuinely funny and charming he is (with that extra twinkle) I am now a massive fan! I am so fickle! lol It was a great weekend, the families on the 1st show were Liz McLarnon (Atomic Kitten) and Uri Geller (weird man) and the 2nd show was Donal MacIntyre and Charlie Brooks (Janine from Eastenders). It was 3 hours of laughter and would love to go again.

Another positive, lost 1lb this week which I am pleased with and I am going to re-focus on the -3 project this week as going to London got in the way of that experiment.

Bad shit, I dont actually want to go into details about this but Andy is going through some really horrible stuff at work. They have picked a fight with the wrong person and they are going to regret it completely!! BRING IT ON!!!!

Anyway, the bad will not get me down making me turn to food and the good will push me forward to reaching my goals!!!!

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Day 2 on the -3 experiment!

So today I have written my -3 on my hand and made my food choices.

I have had crumpets for breakfast and for lunch I have Egg salad, a pack of Walkers Sunbites and 6 slices of pineapple. My pint glass has already been drained once this morning so on a bit of a roll.

For tea tonight I am doing a Chicken casserole with boiled potatoes and of course loads of veg. Now normally I would save some points for a bit of chocolate but tonight I am going to have yoghurt and pears instead (this is part of me cutting down on my crisps and chocolate intake each day).

Day 2 sorted!

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-3

I have loved watching The Biggest Loser UK for the last few weeks and continuing on my positive vibe I am going to do an experiment that I saw the black team try last week or the week before and Kev stormed this week!

I have written -3 on my hand and I will keep writing it on throughout the week while sending a message to my brain telling it to inform my body how much I WILL be losing this week. It will keep me focused on my goal for this week.

I chose -3 because that will get me to dead on 14stone which would be brilliant meaning next week I will definately be in the 13's!!

I am in London this weekend but I am not going to let that affect my positiveness and it shouldn't in principle.

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Better mood today.

As usual I can never stay grumpy for long and I am back in my positive frame of mind!

I am going to try and cut down my chocolate and crisps this week and really up the exercise!

Eeek I am aching more just at the thought of it! lol

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1lb on....

I know why, roll on next week, end of.............

My mother f*cking body hates me!!!!

Yet another b*stard period!!!!!

The only positive thing is that I went 3 weeks this time instead of 2 so some improvement there but that's about it! I am bloated, tired and grumpy (can you tell?). Of course today is weigh in day so a gain now expected instead of the loss I deserve...........thing is, even though I will know the reason for the gain it doesnt make me feel any better, I have worked hard this week doing loads of exercise and eating the right food (all pointed) and my bloody stupid body ruins it! HARUMPH!!!!!

Waffling

Well I could write about the most amazing thunderstorm I am currently experiencing or I could write about the meeting I have today at Lolly's school or I could write about work but I don't think I will.

Instead I am going to write about..................................

the attitude of people in this day and age.

I am not going to mention any specific incidents or anything like that it is more my worry about the sort of nation we seem to have turned into.

We seem to be a nation of moaners, scroungers, violent, ignorant and potantially dangerous set of human beings because of the aforementioned things.

I seem to worry more and more about what sort of life my children and eventually grandchildren will have if we carry on like this.

If we get hurt we want paying for it, if we look at someone in the wrong way we end up paying for it, if we don't get things the easy way we don't want to know, if we go to help a small distressed child we must be a peodaphile, if we go to help someone we could end up being hurt or killed, we are letting kids become parents, we are so 'pc' now that we are tying ourselves up in knots, ............ I think you get the gist.

Why is it that the only thing people aspire to is that 15 minutes of fame and instant wealth?!

I know this is just me waffling on but as a nearly 40 year old woman I am more confused by people that I ever was! Most people scare the shit out of me these days, what chance do our kids really have?!

Rain and hail stones!!!!

The bloody freaky weather flooded my cellar and broke my freezer which then de-frosted and ruined all the food we bought last week!!!!! FFS!

A lovely dress.........

I have 2 weddings in September and I really love this dress. My dilemma is what size should I buy? I am currently border line 16 top, 18 bottom/14 top 16 bottom depending on the shape and style.

I am focusing on averaging 1lb per week which from today will be 12lbs loss if I keep on target.

Do I go for a 14? or a 12?

Eeeekkk!! Help!!!!!!

Another 1.5lbs this week!

I am really pleased with this loss this week, exercise has really given my weight loss a boost, it really does work!

Thank you my lovely little Wii fit!

Lordy lordy..............

tired is not in it today!!

Having a few problems with my eldest lad regarding trust issues and responsibilty and it is really getting me down, I feel useless at the moment. I have tried alsorts to resolve it from shouting to banning him from things to talking it through etc etc etc but nothing seems to work. I am really at a loss and don't know what to do next......I am at a total loss. :o(

Why isn't there more help for parents out there? It seems to me that because Matt isnt an 'extreme' case he isn't deemed as important to help and that is terrible. It often means that he is overlooked and that in itself can lead to other problems.

He is a fantastic boy but also very mixed up, we are waiting on an appointment for a psychological assesment to help with the issues and anger he has at the moment. I am worried that I am pinning all my hopes on this one appointment..........but I have to believe it will help him. In the meantime I am just in limbo and feel utterly helpless..........

Update.

Forgot to post that I had a sts last week, not expected but I am more chilled about my weird moody body so not too worried. Going to keep on doing more of the same and hope it will show on Tuesday.

Still doing exercise each day and feeling very smug about it! lol My confidence has had a boost which I can only account to the exercise giving me an energy fix or something. I am definately becoming an exercise bore but I really don't care.

The weather is pants especially because I wanted to tidy up our excuse for a garden this weekend, oh well, hopefully next week it will be brighter.

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Limbo.

Right in the middle of this feeling at the moment................

A new challenge......

Once again my sis has talked me into doing something that I have never done before and that is a physical activity for charity.

http://www.breastcancercampaign.org/how/event/steponit/

It does actually seem very doable so I have sent off for a pack and will have a read on how to go about it but I think I will definately go for it.

I just hope I will get enough sponsership money but I am sure I can do it....

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A lovely day...........

Had a lovely day today, Lolly had a baker day off school so we met my friend Jean at endcliffe park for lunch. The weather was lovely and I felt really relaxed sat outside eating my healthy lunch. My shoulders ended up a bit burnt but not too bad, I had even done my Wii fit before we went out so I could chill out this evening. Lovely!

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