P*ssed off with my bad luck, not been able to exercise at all and not understanding why people are so vindictive!!!
I have stuck to the diet but I have really felt the difference not exercising this week, I should still get a loss based on just the diet but I have felt really sluggish and have had no energy so it just shows the other benefits regular exercise can bring.
I really want this drain problem to be the last bad thing for a while.........
Not done any exercise for 3 days now, I do have my excuses all in place (all valid) and when we know the outcome from andy's work tomorrow I will know whether I go at it like a demon or spend my time being usefull and get Andy the fuck out of there!!!!
Whatever, I feel the need to box like a mo'fo to get my frustration out!!
Ok nice stuff first, went to London at the weekend to watch the recording of 2 All Star Family Fortunes shows. Before I went I never had a good word to say about Mr Kay but after seeing how genuinely funny and charming he is (with that extra twinkle) I am now a massive fan! I am so fickle! lol It was a great weekend, the families on the 1st show were Liz McLarnon (Atomic Kitten) and Uri Geller (weird man) and the 2nd show was Donal MacIntyre and Charlie Brooks (Janine from Eastenders). It was 3 hours of laughter and would love to go again.
Another positive, lost 1lb this week which I am pleased with and I am going to re-focus on the -3 project this week as going to London got in the way of that experiment.
Bad shit, I dont actually want to go into details about this but Andy is going through some really horrible stuff at work. They have picked a fight with the wrong person and they are going to regret it completely!! BRING IT ON!!!!
Anyway, the bad will not get me down making me turn to food and the good will push me forward to reaching my goals!!!!
So today I have written my -3 on my hand and made my food choices.
I have had crumpets for breakfast and for lunch I have Egg salad, a pack of Walkers Sunbites and 6 slices of pineapple. My pint glass has already been drained once this morning so on a bit of a roll.
For tea tonight I am doing a Chicken casserole with boiled potatoes and of course loads of veg. Now normally I would save some points for a bit of chocolate but tonight I am going to have yoghurt and pears instead (this is part of me cutting down on my crisps and chocolate intake each day).
I have loved watching The Biggest Loser UK for the last few weeks and continuing on my positive vibe I am going to do an experiment that I saw the black team try last week or the week before and Kev stormed this week!
I have written -3 on my hand and I will keep writing it on throughout the week while sending a message to my brain telling it to inform my body how much I WILL be losing this week. It will keep me focused on my goal for this week.
I chose -3 because that will get me to dead on 14stone which would be brilliant meaning next week I will definately be in the 13's!!
I am in London this weekend but I am not going to let that affect my positiveness and it shouldn't in principle.
The only positive thing is that I went 3 weeks this time instead of 2 so some improvement there but that's about it! I am bloated, tired and grumpy (can you tell?). Of course today is weigh in day so a gain now expected instead of the loss I deserve...........thing is, even though I will know the reason for the gain it doesnt make me feel any better, I have worked hard this week doing loads of exercise and eating the right food (all pointed) and my bloody stupid body ruins it! HARUMPH!!!!!
Well I could write about the most amazing thunderstorm I am currently experiencing or I could write about the meetingIhave today at Lolly's school or I could write about work but I don't think I will.
Instead I am going to write about..................................
the attitude of people in this day and age.
I am not going to mention any specific incidents or anything like that it is more my worry about the sort of nation we seem to have turned into.
We seem to be a nation of moaners, scroungers, violent, ignorant and potantially dangerous set of human beings because of the aforementioned things.
I seem to worry more and more about what sort of life my children and eventually grandchildren will have if we carry on like this.
If we get hurt we want paying for it, if we look at someone in the wrong way we end up paying for it, if we don't get things the easy way we don't want to know, if we go to help a small distressed child we must be a peodaphile, if we go to help someone we could end up being hurt or killed, we are letting kids become parents, we are so 'pc' now that we are tying ourselves up in knots, ............ I think you get the gist.
Why is it that the only thing people aspire to is that 15 minutes of fame and instant wealth?!
I know this is just me waffling on but as a nearly 40 year old woman I am more confused by people that I ever was! Most people scare the shit out of me these days, what chance do our kids really have?!
Having a few problems with my eldest lad regarding trust issues and responsibilty and it is really getting me down, I feel useless at the moment. I have tried alsorts to resolve it from shouting to banning him from things to talking it through etc etc etc but nothing seems to work. I am really at a loss and don't know what to do next......I am at a total loss. :o(
Why isn't there more help for parents out there? It seems to me that because Matt isnt an 'extreme' case he isn't deemed as important to help and that is terrible. It often means that he is overlooked and that in itself can lead to other problems.
He is a fantastic boy but also very mixed up, we are waiting on an appointment for a psychological assesment to help with the issues and anger he has at the moment. I am worried that I am pinning all my hopes on this one appointment..........but I have to believe it will help him. In the meantime I am just in limbo and feel utterly helpless..........
Forgot to post that I had a sts last week, not expected but I am more chilled about my weird moody body so not too worried. Going to keep on doing more of the same and hope it will show on Tuesday.
Still doing exercise each day and feeling very smug about it! lol My confidence has had a boost which I can only account to the exercise giving me an energy fix or something. I am definately becoming an exercise bore but I really don't care.
The weather is pants especially because I wanted to tidy up our excuse for a garden this weekend, oh well, hopefully next week it will be brighter.
Had a lovely day today, Lolly had a baker day off school so we met my friend Jean at endcliffe park for lunch. The weather was lovely and I felt really relaxed sat outside eating my healthy lunch. My shoulders ended up a bit burnt but not too bad, I had even done my Wii fit before we went out so I could chill out this evening. Lovely!
Starting weight from the very beginning...... 19st.
Phase One took 1.5 years and I lost 59lbs both online at first and then at meetings.
Phase two started at the beginning of 2010 (after all the snow so 12th January meeting) with a start weight of 14stone 11lbs.
So far I have lost 8.5lbs. I would have liked more but I had 11 weeks of staying the same when I did my training for my half marathon, I was earning between 30-35 activity points a week so my fitness levels are through the roof. I finally lost some weight on my last weigh in (04.05.2010) so I am going to post weekly results on here from now on..........